I don’t know what to do anymore and im really confused and feel hopeless. I just want Him. Im so unclean and I sin much. I am actually loosing hope it feels horrible. I want to go to a nunnery and live my life in solitude with Him but its so many years away until I can actually get permission, etc. Please pray so I can come to this convent very soon. Please pray that I do well in school. Please pray that God takes away my fear for confession. pray that God lets me taste His Love and give me Peace.