please remember me, the sinner You love and died for Lord. only You know what’s in my heart and what I want. I don’t know what’s best for me, so please give me the patience and wisdom God to know what is good for me and what is not part of your plan. thank you for making it clear multiple times he was not for me. you know who truly is in my heart though, who I would grow closer to you with and never stray. Please God, make me deserve him in my life. I would so gladly live the rest of my life in peace off the grid in Your name with him.